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October 10th, 2009
10:43 am - this song makes me think of joe....
You better take it from me,
That boy is like a disease
You’re running, you’re tired, you’re trying to hide
And you’re wondering why you can’t get free
He’s like a curse he’s like a drug.
You get addicted to his love.
You wanna get out but he’s holding you down ‘Cause you can’t live without one more touch.
He’s a good time cowboy Casanova; leaning up against the record machine
He looks like a cool drink of water but he’s candy coated misery
He’s the devil in disguise, a snake with blue eyes and he only comes out at night
Gives you feelings that you don’t wanna fight
You better run for your life
I see that look on your face, you ain’t hearing what I say
So I’ll say it again ‘cause I’ve been where you’ve been and I know how it ends, you can’t get away
Don’t even look in his eyes, he’ll tell you nothing but lies
And you wanna believe, but you won’t be deceived if you listen to me and take my advice
He’s a good time cowboy Casanova; leaning up against the record machine
He looks like a cool drink of water but he’s candy coated misery
He’s the devil in disguise, a snake with blue eyes and he only comes out at night
Gives you feelings that you don’t wanna fight
You better run for your life
Run, run, run away don’t let him mess with your mind
He’ll tell you anything you wanna hear
He’ll break your heart it’s just a matter of time
But just remember-
He’s a good time cowboy Casanova leaning up against the record machine
He looks like a cool drink of water but he’s candy coated misery
He’s the devil in disguise, a snake with blue eyes and he only comes out at night
Gives you feelings that you don’t wanna fight
You better run for your life
Oh you better run for your life,
Oh you better run for your life
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August 15th, 2009
10:09 am
Oh, but money and power don't matter
When the doctor said "the cancer spread"
She holds on tight to her husband and babies
And says "this is just another test God gave me.
And I know just how to handle this"
I'll hold my head high
I'll never let this define
The light in my eyes
Love myself, give it Hell
I'll take on this world
If I stand and be strong
No, I'll never give up
I will conquer with love
And I'll fight like
Like a girl
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March 27th, 2008
07:40 pm - haha
so since i totally suck at scrabble, i cheat and look for words online for inspiration (i am playing an online game with charlie) so i found this website and here were two definitions that i almost choked on my water when i was reading it:.
- ex-boyfriend
- 1. a stalker; one who stalks.
- 2. a man incapable of telling small lies with a straight face.
- ex-girlfriend
- 1. a woman who expects everything about her relationship to a man will stay exactly the same following a sudden and inexplicable discontinuation of all sexual activity with him; a victim.
- 2. twice annually, birthday and new year’s, the beloved.
BEST explination of an ex boyfriend EVER! here's the website for some more of your entertainment.
http://sedition.com/ddx/
ahahahah! i just saw what 'man' was defined as! a balding monkey!! i love it!
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February 6th, 2008
06:46 pm - stolen from michelle
this is wayyyy too good to pass up. michelle, i f-ing love you!!! enjoy everyone, as i know i did!
http://www.craigslist.org/about/best/sfo/518589816.html
(or for you lazy ones)
Date: 2007-12-24, 10:54AM PST
Dear Internet Porn,
These last ten years have been quite a trip, have they not? My letter to you now, however, is not one of celebration... I don't feel like we are the same anymore. We just don't have that passion we used to.
When we first met I was a loser, and you were there for me. My parents told me that you were no good for me, but I didn't listen. You showed me that there were plenty of people like myself getting laid. It was beautiful and passionate. Your softcore erotic videos were a tasteful introduction to my budding sexuality.
As I got older I started seeing girls on the side. I knew you were jealous, but you have always held a special place in my heart. You became naughtier and it affected my relationships. I started wanting all the things I had seen you do. I wanted to be just like you. I wanted to cover my girlfriend's face, put it up her ass, choke her.
But that's when I realized your dark secret, Internet Porn. You aren't real: you are a fake and shallow individual. No girl wants a load on her face! Anal sex hurts and humiliates, and choking only leads to bruises that friends and loved ones ask about. You lied to me and changed my sexual expectations. Now no girl can please me.
I know it isn't all bad. You've taught me so much. I can surf the internet with either hand and I know all the keyboard shortcuts for my browser. I know positions that aren't even in the Kamasutra. But you have such a dark side. I've been late for work more than once and I find myself wanting to jerkoff at six in the morning. That's what you've done to me.
Even now, on the eve of Christ's birth, I sit hunched over my computer, penis in hand. I had to turn the nativity scene around so that Jesus wouldn't see your filth. Try as I might, I can never hide you well enough either. It is harder to find you squirreled away on my hard drive than it is to get into my online bank account. Yet there is always lingering evidence. I've told you time and again to stop leaving your things at my place. But you ALWAYS forget something: a shortcut here, an unclear history there.
There's no acceptance when you are discovered either. It might have been ok when we started - just innocent flirting with softcore. But now my girlfriends discover my asphyxiation collection, or that one goat video. I hate that you always invite your shadiest friends over when you come.
So I have one request. I know I can't get rid of you... you are the psychopathic stalker to my teenage horror film. But if you won't leave me alone, can you at least do me one favor? If I ever die, can you please format my hard drive? All of them? If you can't do that, just burn my place down. My family can never know of my shame.
- Your shamed lover
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December 17th, 2007
09:24 pm
i know it's been a while since i posted. there is really nothing significant to post about. i live in an incredibly boring town. i have the "dream" job i went to college for. i work 40 hours a week and i try to enjoy my weekends. but for some reason, i feel like i am settling for this life. the longer i am here, the more i realize i would love to be a teacher. i love helping people and making a difference in their lives, but most of all, i love children. and at this rate, i will never have any of my own, so i can live vicariously through others. it's so crazy when i think about where i was a year ago and what i predicted for my life right now, it's not at all what i expected. even 6 months ago i was living a different life. it's exciting and very depressing all at the same time. everything has fallen into perfect order except companionship for me. since i have everything else figured out, maybe it's a good time to start looking for love. love from a man who loves me as much as i love him. respect me, trust me, and honor me. i hope to god i am mature enough to let that happen if i ever do find that man. i found these quotes (since i am a hopeless romantic!) that made me feel a little better, and a little sad. patience is a virtue i need to exercise.
Let us love, not in word or speech, but in truth and action~ John 3:18
Without faith, nothing is possible. With it, nothing is impossible.
Life is just a mirror, and what you see out there you must first see inside of you.
A friend's love says, if you ever need anything I'll be there. True love says, you'll never need anything; I'll be there.
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November 4th, 2007
09:58 pm
i just watched 7 straight hours of spiderman and i loved every fucking second of it. i should do this every weekend.
that's all.
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September 10th, 2007
11:27 am - for you
i love you.
http://www.twloha.com/
to my brothers, to my friends, to myself
"watching love's patient victory over pain"
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August 25th, 2007
09:21 pm - i think this song was written for me, seriously
so this song goes out to all my females friends. we all have asshole ex's, ex-lovers, been cheated on, whatever. you all can appreciate this. sarah johns is my new hero. (the first verse is my personal favorite. no......she wasn't a skank and i'm not bitter!) where was this song, oh, 6 months ago??
I can't believe you'd do that to me
Use me
You've fooled around and and wrecked my heart
She's just a skank rode hard and put up
Well, good luck
I would've given you the finger on my left hand
The one that you use for a wedding band
But now I'm givin' you
The one in the middle
The one that's a little bit longer
And I got another one
On my other hand
So I can say it even stronger
If you're askin' if I'm done
Well, I'm sure not sayin' you're number one
No, now I'm givin' you
The one in the middle
The one that says we're through
I hope you're happy with your sad life
That's right
I hope you get what you deserve
And when you're tired of TV dinners
Remember
I would've given you the finger on my left hand
The one that you use for a wedding band
And now I'm givin' you
The one in the middle
The one that's a little bit longer
And I got another one
On my other hand
So I can say it even stronger
If you're askin' if I'm done
Well, I'm sure not sayin' you're number one
Well, you made your bed
So go lay in it
And you forced my heart and hands
To the limit
Ah, yeah, I've had it with you, darlin'
That's right
And now I'm givin' you
The one in the middle
The one that's a little bit longer
And I got another one
On my other hand
So I can say it even stronger
If you're askin' if I'm done
Well, I'm sure not sayin' you're number one
No, now I'm givin' you
The one in the middle
The one that says we're through
Oh, yeah, read between the lines, baby
Um, hmm
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June 13th, 2007
10:26 am - interesting
Do not mistake temptation for opportunity.
hmm, what do you think it means?? i'll be thinking about this today.
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May 27th, 2007
11:51 pm
"Someday you'll meet someone who makes you see why it never worked out with anyone else"
*sigh* i'm such a hopeless romantic.
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April 29th, 2007
10:12 pm
life is such a bittersweet journey. as hard as it may seem, it is possible to be at an absolute high because of contentment and joy; and an absolute low because of anger and fear. let's just hope if it ever comes nose to nose, the sweetness wins over bitterness.
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April 5th, 2007
01:36 pm - inspiring
i got a fortune cookie with my sushi yesterday for lunch. it says:
you are capable, competent, creative, careful. prove it.
it made me feel like i'm not completely worthless. i really need to get back to school and make something with my life. that's all for now. i'm eating lunch and i found that from yesterday. hope the rest of the day doesn't drag (but it always does.....)
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January 11th, 2007
11:17 am - New Year's Resolutions
Here are my goals I want to get accomplished in 2007 (in no specific order):
1. Join a gym. I want a smaller waist and a flat stomach. Like before Mount Mary's cooking fattened me up. I want to be able to run 5K's and 8K's all summer with my brothers.
2. Apply and start grad school for Fall 2007.
3. Learn patience. I have too short of a fuse.
4. Get on a routine. Sleep, get up for work, and leave work all at the same time every day!
5. Ask my boss for a raise, or get another job. Preferable a raise.
6. Save enough money to buy myself a bed. A real one, not just some crappy metal frame.
7. Take a road trip to the west coast this summer.
Hopefully these aren't too unreachable. I have deadlines for each of these so I can accomplish some of it all year long.
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December 22nd, 2006
11:41 am
still at work, yeah. i thought i'd share this with everyone. so i know this sounds really cynical and slightly dramatized, but maybe because i can relate. i've kind of been at a low point lately. anyways, this is a part of my favorite song by A Perfect Circle. i should listen to them more often. i like them.
Liberate this will
To release us all
Gotta cut away, clear away
Snip away and sever this
Umbilical residue that's
Keeping me from killing you
And from pulling you down with me in here
I can almost hear you scream
Give me
One more medicated peaceful moment
One more medicated peaceful moment
And I don't wanna feel this overwhelming
Hostility
Because I don't wanna feel this overwhelming
Hostility
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11:09 am - i think i have the christmas fever
i can't concentrate at work. i don't want to be here. i want to go home, sew up a sweater for my mom, make some hot coco and put on a movie. 2 people have already left for the day to shop/wrap presents. zac and i took one car today and i HAVE to stay at work until 4. yuck. i can keep dreaming.
last night my parents came over for dinner. it was okay. zac and i weren't speaking, so it was a little uncomfortable. but everything turned out pretty okay, nothing spectacular though. then i sent out more christmas cards. i can only send as many as i make. so i still have about 4 more to make and send. we talked a little. im still pretty pissed at him, but i cant hold a grudge forever. i think its hormones too. i hate PMSing.
on a better note, i got offer a job as a manager at a theatre. my old boss is the general manager at a new theatre and he wants me to be a manager. only problem, its in hartford. so now i can live 28 miles from downtown and 24 miles from the theatre. i think i will take the job, only for the weekends. he's a great guy and well, free movies are great! i do miss working in a theatre a lot. it was a great 5 years, i think its time to go back :) then i can quit kohl's. or maybe work one night a week. i'm so cheap. i love discounts, free movies and getting multiple incomes.
merry christmas and happy new year to everyone if i do not post before then! hope you all have a wonderful time with families and loved ones! and if anyone who reads this is going to be in minneapolis for new years, call me! i'll be there with zac for some time over break.
Current Music: A Perfect Circle
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December 19th, 2006
09:54 pm - "new" temporary computer is restored!
jesus christ, who knew it would be so difficult to get a computer that works? my emachines is a giant piece of shit. zac put linux on it (or something like that) he gutted my brother's computer. there are random parts all over my spare bedroom. and my mom's laptop is such a piece of crap. i cant go to any websites because its windows 95 and she hasn't updated the software!
anyways, i started writing out my christmas cards. yeah, i know, i have like 5 days. thats tough. if i thought about you enough to search your address and i made all my cards by hand, well, then you'll know if you're special in a week or so. lol. its the thought that counts!
my landlord is getting crazier and crazier by the day. i think my old roommate rubbed off on her or something. she made a "deal" for my mom. she lets some woman move in jan 1st. jes and i pay rent for jan, feb and march. this chick has bad credit on her car, so therefore she wont pay rent and will need to be evicted in march. but before she leaves she will be upset by the eviction and destroy the place. this way my landlord can use jes and my money to pay for damages and this chick's money for rent. are you fucking nuts? yeah, we are going to let you get a $1,600 income for 3 months! and her whole eviction plan, who plans things like that out? then she said if we didnt agree to it, she wasnt going to rent it out until june (when out lease is up) and we will just have to keep paying.
so i got my electric bill, its THREE TIMES as high as its been all summer. my mom went over there and the heat was ON at 62 degrees and 3 lights were on. i set it to 45 degrees. so she is swearing up and down she didnt touch the heat and didnt leave any lights on. god knows how long shes been doing this. then she went on this huge rant on how the apt is "abandoned" and she has every right to go in there whenever she wants and so whatever she wants and doesnt need to call for mine or jes' approval. ABANDONED??? yeah, thats why weve been paying rent for the last 6 months and not living there. vacant and abandoned are NOT the same thing, you crazy bitch. it just keeps getting more and more out of hand. i cant take it. shes NUTS! i cant wait until she gets a letter from my lawyer suing her for 6 months of back rent, medical bills, utilities, etc. i think head might actually explode.
other than that, i cant wait to go to zac's for christmas. we are going to duluth to ski, mall of america to shop and hang out with his parents. im going for a whole week! im pretty excited about that. hard to believe its 45 and 6 days before christmas!
okay, time to go, enough ranting for one entry. i will update more frequently now that i have the internet readily available to me! peace out.
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November 29th, 2006
11:41 am
im so exhausted with this week. is it over yet? why is everyday dragging on longer and longer? i need to get out of this crappy job.
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November 11th, 2006
08:08 pm - yay for the internet!
got the internet today! they were 2 hours late, so i get $20 off my next bill. yay for that, but it did waste my entire morning. we to kohl's today to pick up my check and buy new towels and i maxed out my card! oh well, it was all stuff my mom wanted me to buy for her for christmas gifts, so at least i dont have to pay a good portion of it. they are just too many good sales!
other than that, next weekend im going to minnesota to be with zac and his family for thanksgiving. my grandparents from texas are coming up the next weekend, so zac hopefully is coming home a day earlier to meet them. my other grandma today gave me like 15 antique spools that are wooden. they are so cool, but i dont know what to do with them. any ideas?
so i got a "new" computer. by new i mean my dad and zac built it for preston and it didnt work for him, so they gave it to me. awesome. its got all his pictures, papers, music, etc on it. and i havent put anything of mine on it yet. and i tried to dl iTunes and deadaim today, what the fuck, nothing works. zac is like, yeah, there is something seriously wrong with it. i was like, no kidding! why do you think preston didnt want it?? and you built it so you can fix it, yay! im not sure he was very amused. lol, oh well!
okay, time to get ready. we are going to the bad genie tonight. i guess its this 60's/70's rock lounge that just opened up. it sounds pretty cool though. its where club havana used to be. more later! peace out.
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November 6th, 2006
06:28 pm
i get the internet at my apt on saturday... only one more week of wasting florence eiseman's money for me to check my email.
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October 27th, 2006
05:06 pm - happy (early) halloween!
i hope everyone is getting all dressed up this weekend and going out somewhere! everyone needs a little holiday spirit! zac and i are going as jack and sally from nightmare before christmas, i made our costumes :) only bad thing, ive been super sick all week and its probably not in my best interest to drink and smoke. oh well, i shall get worse!
i got another job. to pay my rent. i work at kohl's. its only like 15 or 20 hours a week, but thats on top on my 40 here. im bored with both my jobs. i need something to stimulate me. which is why i need to go back to grad school. im thinking next fall of enrolling at concordia. its close, its private and i dont need to write a thesis. thats about all i require.
other news, apparently im going to sue my landlord. she is being a total BITCH and told off my mom the other day. so we hired this lawyer/mold inspector guy who specializes in "neglected" tenants and goes after landlords. i dont know how this is going to play out, but i suppose once i know more about the entire process i wont be so reluctant. thats about all i know about it though.
okay, time to go home, im HOPEFULLY getting the internet at my house next week. i got my brother's computer. it doesnt work for him because he plays too many games on it at once, and i download mp3's and im, so i dont think i can overload it. but its super fast (supposedly) and my dad and zac built it, so if it breaks ill just harass them! have a good weekend!
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